The woman on the table next to me was sitting so close that I could smell her shampoo. When she stroked her hair with her hand a few times, I wish silently she does not have dandruff.
My favorite coffee place was very packed. But taking great delights in my coffee and typing away at my keyboards, I could care less about hogging my seat for 5 hours now.
These are moments I spend times to do the things I like. Actually, nothing much in particular – just spends times with Susan.
Yes, that’s me.
Despite the noisy and crowded environment, I am oblivious to things around me. Only my computer, my book and coffee got most of my attention.
Occasionally, I glance at some women and take note of their hair styles and dresses, trying to be some kinds of fashion police.
I notice one woman in a black and tightly-clad dress, which makes her looks too thin. Another woman has a beaded hair. She is pretty but I think her hair style is a mistake. Then I notice a lot of women’s eyes with heavy mascaras. It makes me wish I am wearing it like them, except I am just too lazy to do makeup.
This is funny though. My fashion sense has always been below average but it is so easy for me to judge others.
I was surfing the net just now until the Wi-Fi Connection became unavailable an hour ago.
While surfing, I managed to read some blogs, check my emails, access Facebook. Recently a friend from Denmark, whom I befriended in the chat room more than 15 years ago, suddenly got back in touch with me.
After 15 years?
Surprisingly! But it was back at the time, when mIRC is the most popular chat software. I also read few pages of the book I brought along.
Seriously, I cannot be without a book everywhere I go!
I text-ed my good friend just now to ask her out for dinner next week and we confirmed on Tuesday. My parents called to ask me something about giving away my brother’s old computer.
This is my typical weekend when I am not going out with friends or doing something useful with my time.
This is the “quiet” time for me to write and reflect on things around me.
My life has been series of new discoveries now.
On Friday last week, I waited for the train for an hour only to get stuck when it broke down just few minutes after taking off from the station. I was trapped in darkness with hundreds of people. It was stuffy. Luckily the doors could be pried open and a few people got out from the train. I only discovered then that the train is actually quite high from the grounds. So, I did not feel necessarily for me to get outside as long as the air was flowing in. Some got impatient and walked back on the railroads. A dangerous move, I have to say. Accident happens all the times and having your body run over by a train is no funny business.
On Friday this week, I have a surprising finding which is very good news to me. It makes me feel an unexpected good turn of life – at the time when I am least expected it. I also almost lost my office laptop because I left it at the Mamak stalls but I was so lucky the store keeper managed to keep it for me. Another lucky , lucky break! Thank God!
Few weeks ago, I visited the Myanmar refugees and experienced a lot of things. And I managed to write about this.
Yesterday, I went for blood donation for the first time. (Yes, for first time, can you believe that?). And while I was having the blood sucked out of my body, a cameraman from one of the TV station decided to point his camera at me. Haha. I wonder whether I was going to be on TV.
And I also went together with my friend to take her dog to the dog clinic – also first time for me.
Next week, I am on something new too.
I think I am content with my life for the time being, despite my broken relationship.
It has been more than 3 months now. It is easy to be depressed or think of the things that make me sad. But I know that I have to keep moving forward. Think of positive things and let go. Forget the past and forgive.
People say the initial breakup period is like livings in a void, where we feel disorient and going on an emotion roller coaster.
But I know this is the important time of my life, because this is the time when I can reflect on my inner self to find wisdom in life.
I think I will miss this when this is over, no matter how hard it is now.